oralfixations | EV IC POST

no. im asking you to not chase him anymore, or threaten him, or talk anyone else into threatening him.

i know what happened in rapture. you seriously told him id be okay with you trying to electrocute him?

Is that what he--

Fucking asshole.

No. I told him that if he went after me again, I'd have my friends take his head off. Because he fucking deserves it. Because he did say 'just wait til you're human and alone again' or some menacing shit like that.

And yeah, I did electrocute him. And I said that you were more okay with me having 'powers' since I could help you. Not that you were okay with me electrocuting him.

I can't help it if he can't understand simple sentences.

[Stiles isn't lying.]

you can help threatening him though. and before you say it i know, he can help threatening you too, and its not okay that he did.

its just not okay that you did either

so i want it to be done, if you guys cant put all of this behind you then just stay away from each other. stop trying to kill each other because i cant do this stiles

i cant keep trying to save you from each other. hes a werewolf, he needs my help and at every full moon were in it together and youre my best friend and im always in everything with you. i cant be in the middle anymore so please.

just tell me its over. no more. from either of you.

So when he kills me, what happens? I get to say 'I told you so'?

I don't trust him, Scott. And I don't see why I have to back down when I'm the one who has his handy work all over his face.

And don't give me that 'it wasn't him' shit. He still chose me to attempt to murder.

but it wasnt him. it wasnt! he was less in control of himself when he 'chose' you than you were when you electrocuted him, man. do you even know how much that scares me?

if you wont stop for his sake or for mine, then stop for your own. youre changing, stiles. it was always you who stopped me from going too far. you helped me find my anchor, you helped me fight and when i was losing control you were right there. all im trying to do now? is that same thing for you.

Edited 2013-06-30 23:59 (UTC)

[And some of what Scott said, hurt. It frustrated him, and upset him, on a lot of levels.]

Yeah, I am changing. Of course I'm changing. We're in a shit place, Scott--and I'm just trying to be realistic and a survivalist. Which I had to be--you have only seen a bit of what this place does to you.

And I--

--I appreciate you trying to help, Scott. But I've always been the realist. It's why I've been able to help you.

i dont care how much of this place ive seen. i get that youve been here longer, but there are some things that doesnt change, stiles.

it doesnt change whether its right or wrong to torture someone. thats what electricity is to us, thats why the argents use it. and youve seen that, and you did it anyway. even though he wasnt attacking you. thats not you being a realist. i dont know what that makes you, but i know i dont like it.

[ He just has to be honest. Scott knows that this is harsh, but he doesn't think he'll be able to talk Stiles down by being nice. Jackson had been right about that.

And mostly, he's just really, really tired of trying to protect both of them and failing all around. Stiles had scared him in Rapture, but at the end of it he'd felt like things were better.

Until he found out about this. ]

stop doing it. please, stiles. just leave him alone. and before you say anything, he already promised he wouldnt come anywhere near you again. im not trying to take sides, im telling both of you to cut it the hell out.

He promised? He promised me that he would be coming after me once he got a chance.

Why the hell are you going to really believe he's going to keep a promise to you? He's only going to hang with you until you aren't any use to him.

I'm your best friend, Scott. I'll promise, but I'm not dying for that promise.

hes not 'hanging' with me. hes scared of being near me in case i hurt him like you did. in case i hurt him FOR you.

[ And yeah, Scott knows Jackson is an asshole. He knows that he's not above lying, or telling the truth. But the stuff he'd said about Stiles is so crazy that he doesn't think Jackson's making it up. It rings too true and, sadly, it fits with the attitude Scott has seen in Stiles himself. ]

he told me he didnt want to be within a continent of you. thats why i believe him. he wants nothing to do with you, he doesnt care about hunting you down.

[Well good, Stiles wants to say. But he doesn't.]

Really? Then why did he say all that shit to me?

Whatever. Whatever you want, Scott. I'm tired of fighting with you.

[He's tired of feeling like he doesn't have his own best friend on his side.]

i dont know why did you say so much shit to him????

im so tired of this. can we just stop. please. i dont want to be in the middle anymore

[ He doesn't want to be the one holding them all together. He just wants there to be a way for everyone to not die for a change. That's all. ]

No one said you had to be.

I'm your best friend, Scott.

That should--

--whatever.

Fine. Whatever you want. I'll do whatever you want.

that should what? mean im cool with electrocuting people?

im never not your best friend. that doesnt just mean agreeing with you tho.

No! Look, that happened, whatever, but it's not like I can do it again. Or I want to.

I'm not saying that it does--but it also means you don't side with a guy who has tried to kill us repeatedly, is a serious asshole, and would throw you under the bus if it got him one inch ahead.

im not siding with him. i dont want there to be sides here, i just want both of you to stop and he already said that he would. the only side im on is the one where no ones trying to kill each other

Dude, life is sides. There will always be sides. You can't help that, Scott.

And again, I don't know why you believe him. He might not be lying now.

But doesn't mean he won't do it later.

So just drop it.

[Yes, they are going in circles, but Stiles refuses to back down on this. Even if he has already agreed to leave Jackson alone.]

if something happens then we'll deal with it together

but for now i dont want to see either of you hurt.
not anymore

not ever again stiles.

[ He doesn't want you to get scarred again, man. ]

You can't protect me from that, Scott.

Not here.

We can only think it's lucky that we will come back from the dead.

no dont even talk like that

you arent going to die that’s not going to happen

when things go down we’ll stick together this time itll be ok

i wont let you down again

It isn't about letting people down, Scott.

You can't save everyone--you can't blame yourself when you can't.

its about letting YOU down

because you got hurt when i went to find allison and i should have stayed with you

i know i cant protect everyone

[ Or at least he knows it in his head. It’s very unlikely to stop him trying. ]

but i should have been there for you

i cant fix it now but if you guys cant leave each other alone then things like this will just keep happening and you have to not get hurt again

i need you to not get hurt again

I told you to go, Scott. It's my own fault.

Scott--

[Stiles just sighs, and doesn't type for a moment. This is more about Scott, than him. He gets that now it's just...it's hard.

But if he needs to let it go, he would for Scott.]

I'll try, Scott, okay?

For you.

[ He just wants to stop this from escalating. Like, more than it already has. Jackson hadn’t fought back when Stiles electrocuted him, but how long could that go on? He’s a werewolf. And, he’s kind of a dick. Eventually he’ll strike back and the only one who’ll suffer then is Stiles.

Scott does not want to see that happen. ]

thanks man. you know im trying to look out for you, right?

I know.

Just remember I don't need a babysitter.

[ You know Stiles, some things that have happened that might make him contest that.

But instead: ]

good because im not one and you better not be thinking thats what i mean.

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